Today was a really long day, started my day at 3:30 am… definately hate waking up in the mornings..

spoke to Drama boy on my way to work, and thank god.. he kept me company over the phone till work started.. but seriously! the song he played was really stuck in my head.. when i was so bored at work, it was really playing in my head.. haizzz.. (* i can imagine how it was when you had that song playing during your maths paper*)

well that aside, since i was so bored.. i kinda did some self reflection.. on alot of things.. and i sat thinking about how much i had grown as a person.. how i had learnt to deal with emotions and rejections( though for my case, it had the weirdest forms).. the different people i met.. the crazy people who had crushes on me.. and all those…

And i thought really hard about the time we both decided that it should just end, as mutual as it may sound.. the mess in my head at that point only i knew.. 

i never imagine saying this, but i am glad it ended… i think there could have never been a better way to let me grow further.. it taught me how to be a tough person and for that , i am thankful.. i told myself i was going to take this year to deal with it.. and yes, i am glad i have.. i am really sure that i wouldn’t want this any other way.. and i hope, you deal with it too.. i’m happier this way.. :)

i pen this down when i had troubles dealing with it, and   but now,since i have dealt with it.. i am just glad i felt all these.. cause i wouldn’t have become the person i am .. And i thank god for the enlightenment :)

thoughts:                                                                                                       The rumbling of emotions from within, when i see you.. i can’t exactly say a word.. it was too hard to describe. it was a situation when my heart beat crazy and i felt it in my throat. my voice choked by the overwhelming feeling of the moment and my eyes filled wth gallons of tears.it was like, suddenly i didn’t know what else to do.everything that i once considered my world abandoned me. i just stood there, with my heart thumping on a massive scale.. hoping you were going to change what you said…